Monday, July 30, 2007
This is how it works. You're young until you're not. You love until you don't. You try until you can't. You laugh until you cry. You cry until you laugh. And everyone must breathe until their dying breath.
No, this is how it works. You peer inside yourself. You take the things you like. And try to love the things you took. And then you take that love you made and stick it into some someone else's heart. Pumping someone else's blood and walking arm in arm. You hope it don't get harmed. But even if it does, you'll just do it all again.
And on the radio, you hear November Rain. That solo's awfully long, but it's a good refrain. You listen to it twice.
No, this is how it works. You peer inside yourself. You take the things you like. And try to love the things you took. And then you take that love you made and stick it into some someone else's heart. Pumping someone else's blood and walking arm in arm. You hope it don't get harmed. But even if it does, you'll just do it all again.
And on the radio, you hear November Rain. That solo's awfully long, but it's a good refrain. You listen to it twice.
11:30 PM
Saturday, July 28, 2007
iDare pre-glow at Clarke Quay today was quite great.
Amazing race and the treasure hunt was sure fun, but at the same time, darn tiring!
We were made to do stuff like busking along this tunnel-bridge and get down the signatures of as many passerbys, who found our performance nice. Oh and at one of our stations, we had to gather people of five different nationalities to perform with us. And yes, in front of the public, obviously. There were passserbys who stopped on to watch us. All lameshit, y'know! Hell embarassing, but thank god I had enthusiastic team mates along. Quite a consolation I suppose.
On another note, meeting new people was great too.
Oh well, all the fun I had definitely made up for the much-dreaded early-rising on such weekends.
Good or bad, the day didn't end there.
Family gathering at my uncle's place for a buffet-dinner, as my aunt and all would be returning to Hawaii today. On top of that, my friend's birthday bbq as well.
It was indeed a long day, but everything ended on a high.
That's something to be happy and thankful for.
Just when I thought I understood who I wanted my heart to be belonged to, another came along...
And I never want to let you down
Forgive me if I slip away
Sometimes it's hard to find the ground
Cause I keep on falling as I try to get away
But still, you know I would be here for you.
Amazing race and the treasure hunt was sure fun, but at the same time, darn tiring!
We were made to do stuff like busking along this tunnel-bridge and get down the signatures of as many passerbys, who found our performance nice. Oh and at one of our stations, we had to gather people of five different nationalities to perform with us. And yes, in front of the public, obviously. There were passserbys who stopped on to watch us. All lameshit, y'know! Hell embarassing, but thank god I had enthusiastic team mates along. Quite a consolation I suppose.
On another note, meeting new people was great too.
Oh well, all the fun I had definitely made up for the much-dreaded early-rising on such weekends.
Good or bad, the day didn't end there.
Family gathering at my uncle's place for a buffet-dinner, as my aunt and all would be returning to Hawaii today. On top of that, my friend's birthday bbq as well.
It was indeed a long day, but everything ended on a high.
That's something to be happy and thankful for.
Just when I thought I understood who I wanted my heart to be belonged to, another came along...
And I never want to let you down
Forgive me if I slip away
Sometimes it's hard to find the ground
Cause I keep on falling as I try to get away
But still, you know I would be here for you.
11:59 PM
Thursday, July 26, 2007
I feel like an old car. Engines breaking down, paint fading, door handles rusting, dusty dashboard and torn-up leather seats. I'm not being what I should, I'm not feeling the pinch - be it school, exams, netball etc. My mind seems to be revolving around the most obscenely superfluous things. And my energy level is on an all-time low. I can hardly keep awake on train rides, I can hardly focus in class; I'm walking, talking, thinking twice as slow as I should. I'm a total wreck. I am lacking the drive, passion, direction. I'm now just a happy photo on the wall, but fading.
MSN IS SUCH A BITCH! I CAN'T SIGN IN FOR HELL!
Someday, i just need you here with me.
MSN IS SUCH A BITCH! I CAN'T SIGN IN FOR HELL!
Someday, i just need you here with me.
9:56 AM
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
How much is real?
So much to question.
An epidemic of the mannequins contaminating everything.
We thought came from the heart,
But never did right from the start.
Just listen to the noises.
Null and void instead of voices.
Before you tell yourself,
It's just a different scene.
Remember it's just different from what you've seen.
So much to question.
An epidemic of the mannequins contaminating everything.
We thought came from the heart,
But never did right from the start.
Just listen to the noises.
Null and void instead of voices.
Before you tell yourself,
It's just a different scene.
Remember it's just different from what you've seen.
12:15 PM
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Its another stay-home for me tomorrow!
Anyway, projects have been wrapped up for this semester.
Like finally! Couldn't have been happier. WOOOO!
On the other hand, exams are coming up pretty soon. 26 more days!
Damn! Time flies for sure. I really need to start mugging.
SERIOUS mugging that is.
MUG MUG MUG, aim towards being a cool nerd. =)
I don't wanna retain for any module. That's the worse thing that could ever happen.
I'm dead shagged today. In desperate need for sleep.
Wish life would slow down a little and let me breathe.
http://www.secret-loves.com/index.php?test=945672
Oh for all you lovebirds out there, try the above link out.
Its quite true, I'm telling you.
Be honest with yourself though, you should know how your heart feels.
=)
Hey you,
Just be yourself, don't be so shy
There's reasons why it's hard
Hey you,
Open your heart, it's not so strange
You've got to change this time
Hey you,
Remember this, none of it's real
Including the way you feel
Anyway, projects have been wrapped up for this semester.
Like finally! Couldn't have been happier. WOOOO!
On the other hand, exams are coming up pretty soon. 26 more days!
Damn! Time flies for sure. I really need to start mugging.
SERIOUS mugging that is.
MUG MUG MUG, aim towards being a cool nerd. =)
I don't wanna retain for any module. That's the worse thing that could ever happen.
I'm dead shagged today. In desperate need for sleep.
Wish life would slow down a little and let me breathe.
http://www.secret-loves.com/index.php?test=945672
Oh for all you lovebirds out there, try the above link out.
Its quite true, I'm telling you.
Be honest with yourself though, you should know how your heart feels.
=)
Hey you,
Just be yourself, don't be so shy
There's reasons why it's hard
Hey you,
Open your heart, it's not so strange
You've got to change this time
Hey you,
Remember this, none of it's real
Including the way you feel
7:53 PM
Monday, July 23, 2007
Today was none of it, which seldom, is the case.
Trigger happy!
Netball training this evening was supposed to be a good one, but the weather was such a destroyer. Barely 15 minutes into training that consisted of only runs and ball work. Then came the pouring rain. URGH!
Oh and HARRY POTTER love, I'm still in my mids though.
I was thinking about Potter half the time during lessons today, that I could barely concentrate.
I had annoying spoilers! S-P-O-I-L-E-R-S!!!
But its okay, I'm still going to continue. Nothing can stop me. =)
And I'm NOT gonna study, all for Harry's sake, till I've completed the book.
You're the million reasons why
There's love reflecting in my eyes
10:53 PM
Friday, July 20, 2007
HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS, YO!
I'm coming for you soon!
10 hours, and I'm counting!
WOOPEEDOO!
Hectic week it was, but today was good.
Apart from the screwed up INFA test 2 though.
Ohmygawd! It was the toughest accounting MCQ paper I've set for.
Sucks! I'm damn worried.
Its gonna be a terribly busy weekend up ahead.
BMGT project is due on Monday and my group haven't started!
We're not a least bit prepared.
Besides, it states on the project requirement document, "your report should be between 15 and 20 pages (Font size 11, excluding diagrams and photos)."
This is definitely not a consolation!
Oh boy! Shit stuff, shit stuff.
Looks like I'll have to sacrifice a little of my HARRY POTTER too.
Oh well, all for the fourty percent.
God bless us.
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
I'm coming for you soon!
10 hours, and I'm counting!
WOOPEEDOO!
Hectic week it was, but today was good.
Apart from the screwed up INFA test 2 though.
Ohmygawd! It was the toughest accounting MCQ paper I've set for.
Sucks! I'm damn worried.
Its gonna be a terribly busy weekend up ahead.
BMGT project is due on Monday and my group haven't started!
We're not a least bit prepared.
Besides, it states on the project requirement document, "your report should be between 15 and 20 pages (Font size 11, excluding diagrams and photos)."
This is definitely not a consolation!
Oh boy! Shit stuff, shit stuff.
Looks like I'll have to sacrifice a little of my HARRY POTTER too.
Oh well, all for the fourty percent.
God bless us.
But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And its sad when you know its your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
9:00 PM
Thursday, July 19, 2007
"I've decided something.
I will cry for you. I will laugh for you. I will live for you."
=)
I wanna lie in bed, listen to my thoughts with accompanying good music.
It's pouring quite heavily out there and the classroom's freaking cold, I'm literally shivering.
I wanna go back home to sleep!
Oooooooooooo!
But meeting the ol' school bestie later is gonna be quite exciting.
She just came back from Aussie and I haven't seen her for ages.
I will cry for you. I will laugh for you. I will live for you."
=)
I wanna lie in bed, listen to my thoughts with accompanying good music.
It's pouring quite heavily out there and the classroom's freaking cold, I'm literally shivering.
I wanna go back home to sleep!
Oooooooooooo!
But meeting the ol' school bestie later is gonna be quite exciting.
She just came back from Aussie and I haven't seen her for ages.
10:26 AM
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
We missed INFA lecture today because we were camwhoring in the library with my webcam.
It wasn't on purpose, I'm serious.
We realised it only 23 minutes after the lecture started.
God damn corrupted! I'm feeling dead guilty.
If dad and mom finds out, I'm doomed.
It wasn't on purpose, I'm serious.
We realised it only 23 minutes after the lecture started.
God damn corrupted! I'm feeling dead guilty.
If dad and mom finds out, I'm doomed.
10:48 PM
Sunday, July 15, 2007
Cats or Dogs?
Dogs, as they are more affectionate and playful.
My guy has to get along with...
my parents, because blood is thicker than water!
I'd sell my soul to date...
Frank Lampard! He is drop dead gorgeous, I swear! And you know I have a fetish for footballers, don't you?
Your best friend wants to date your boyfriend?
What does it say about my love for him if I'm okay about sharing him with another girl? So obviously not.
If I fall for someone who is taken...
I won't do anything. Just be friends.
To get my attention...
the guy should be sweet, nice and gentle. Thoughtful guys very much catches my attention too.
What do you wear to bed?
Shorts and Shirt.
What should your guy wear to bed?
Just boxers fullstop =)
Dogs, as they are more affectionate and playful.
My guy has to get along with...
my parents, because blood is thicker than water!
I'd sell my soul to date...
Frank Lampard! He is drop dead gorgeous, I swear! And you know I have a fetish for footballers, don't you?
Your best friend wants to date your boyfriend?
What does it say about my love for him if I'm okay about sharing him with another girl? So obviously not.
If I fall for someone who is taken...
I won't do anything. Just be friends.
To get my attention...
the guy should be sweet, nice and gentle. Thoughtful guys very much catches my attention too.
What do you wear to bed?
Shorts and Shirt.
What should your guy wear to bed?
Just boxers fullstop =)
10:12 PM
Friday, July 13, 2007
Things don't seem to be as easy as they used to be. It's getting harder everyday to think of better things to say. About what's going on around you and what's happening inside you. When it's time to change, you won't know how. Contrary to belief, things aren't always as pleasing to the eye.
11:47 PM
Thursday, July 12, 2007
Gotta make a little room for me to breathe
Gotta feeling that your about to pull me in too deep
The more I try to walk away
The harder it gets to believe that I don't need you
Oh no
You got me tempted by what's forbidden
How can you be so sweet but oh so unforgiving
And I'm emotionally drained
I'm about to go into the sea
But I don't want it
Any other way
You've got a hold on me (there's no escaping baby)
Got to find a release
Ooooohhhh
Why do I feel so weak
When you are near me
You've got me in too deep
So help me baby
Your living in my dreams
Your always with me
Your the dark in my light
Your the black in my white
And I'll always know
You got me where you want me
Gotta feeling that your about to pull me in too deep
The more I try to walk away
The harder it gets to believe that I don't need you
Oh no
You got me tempted by what's forbidden
How can you be so sweet but oh so unforgiving
And I'm emotionally drained
I'm about to go into the sea
But I don't want it
Any other way
You've got a hold on me (there's no escaping baby)
Got to find a release
Ooooohhhh
Why do I feel so weak
When you are near me
You've got me in too deep
So help me baby
Your living in my dreams
Your always with me
Your the dark in my light
Your the black in my white
And I'll always know
You got me where you want me
11:59 PM
Monday, July 09, 2007
Settle down, I don't know what I want.
Something's not right too, but I think I know what's not.
And everyone seems so, indifferent?
Anyway, projects are the big time killer!
Burns your brain chaotah!
On a happier note, THE RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS IS KEEPING ME ALIVE TONIGHT!
Something's not right too, but I think I know what's not.
And everyone seems so, indifferent?
Anyway, projects are the big time killer!
Burns your brain chaotah!
On a happier note, THE RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS IS KEEPING ME ALIVE TONIGHT!
9:57 PM
Sunday, July 08, 2007
ENGLISH- I love you
POLISH- ja kocham cibie
FRENCH- je t'aime
HINDI- hum tumhe pyar karte hae
CZECH- miluji te
SLOVAKIAN- lu'bim ta
ITALIAN- ti amo
UKRAINIAN- ya tebe kahayu
GERMAN- ish libe dish
CHINESE- wo ai ni
GREEK- s'agapo
HAWAIIAN- aloha wau ia oi
LITHUIANIAN- tav myliu
KOREAN- sarang hae yo
JAPENESE- aishiteru
ROMANIAN- te ubsec
BOSNIAN- volim te
ALBANIAN- te dua
FILIPINO- mahal kita
SPANISH- te amo
PORTUGESE- amo te
ARABIAN- annah be hebic
TAMIL- naan unnai kaathalikkiraen
I can say 'ILOVEYOU' in 23 different languages!
POLISH- ja kocham cibie
FRENCH- je t'aime
HINDI- hum tumhe pyar karte hae
CZECH- miluji te
SLOVAKIAN- lu'bim ta
ITALIAN- ti amo
UKRAINIAN- ya tebe kahayu
GERMAN- ish libe dish
CHINESE- wo ai ni
GREEK- s'agapo
HAWAIIAN- aloha wau ia oi
LITHUIANIAN- tav myliu
KOREAN- sarang hae yo
JAPENESE- aishiteru
ROMANIAN- te ubsec
BOSNIAN- volim te
ALBANIAN- te dua
FILIPINO- mahal kita
SPANISH- te amo
PORTUGESE- amo te
ARABIAN- annah be hebic
TAMIL- naan unnai kaathalikkiraen
I can say 'ILOVEYOU' in 23 different languages!
10:02 PM
Friday, July 06, 2007
Bad week it was.
Everything that could have possibly gone wrong, went wrong.
Firstly, it was my god damn screwed up BLAW CT results, which I don't wish to talk about anymore.
Then, it was losing my thumbdrive at the lecture theatre yesterday, which contained the BMGT project for my group! To make matters worse, none of us had a copy of it in our laptops, which means that we have to re-draft everything from scrap. Not a good move, since we took almost five hours to complete.
Besides, as I mentioned in my previous post, I'm going through an emotional slump!
And today, I lost my wallet! For the first time in my life! Now I know how it feels like. Terrible! It was the last thing anyone wanted to lose. I couldn't deny I was just plain careless and perhaps, irresponsible? I realised only as I was about to step out of city hall with Ghis. 6.10pm! Everything ran through my mind at that moment as I was on the verge of crying, I swear! Reported it to the control station, and I was praying damn hard. Called my sis. She was sucha joker when she said "OMG! Pray to Saint Anthony's! Quick!" Sadly, I wasn't in the right mood for laughter at that point of time. Called Dad to tell him about it too. Fortunately, he didn't scold me. He even offered to pick me up from the mrt station. How nice. But still, I was extremely worried. All my cards! My 32 bucks! Thank God I had Ghis with me, a little consolation. Prayed and prayed through the journey home, hoping that some kind soul would pass it over to the control station. Wasn't myself at all when I was home, as I waited impatiently for that one call. And finally, it came at 9.28pm! It was a heavy weight off my chest, seriously! The man was like "Hello, Fiona right? Your wallet was found at Clementi MRT station. A passenger found it and handed it over to us. Are you a student of Ngee Ann?" I was so excited. Hahaha! Must really thank God, my prayers were answered. Dad and sis were beside me and they were pretty relieved too. Oh well, oh well! I've learnt my lesson.
Tonight, I promise myself a good night, as I sleep all my troubles away.
Everything that could have possibly gone wrong, went wrong.
Firstly, it was my god damn screwed up BLAW CT results, which I don't wish to talk about anymore.
Then, it was losing my thumbdrive at the lecture theatre yesterday, which contained the BMGT project for my group! To make matters worse, none of us had a copy of it in our laptops, which means that we have to re-draft everything from scrap. Not a good move, since we took almost five hours to complete.
Besides, as I mentioned in my previous post, I'm going through an emotional slump!
And today, I lost my wallet! For the first time in my life! Now I know how it feels like. Terrible! It was the last thing anyone wanted to lose. I couldn't deny I was just plain careless and perhaps, irresponsible? I realised only as I was about to step out of city hall with Ghis. 6.10pm! Everything ran through my mind at that moment as I was on the verge of crying, I swear! Reported it to the control station, and I was praying damn hard. Called my sis. She was sucha joker when she said "OMG! Pray to Saint Anthony's! Quick!" Sadly, I wasn't in the right mood for laughter at that point of time. Called Dad to tell him about it too. Fortunately, he didn't scold me. He even offered to pick me up from the mrt station. How nice. But still, I was extremely worried. All my cards! My 32 bucks! Thank God I had Ghis with me, a little consolation. Prayed and prayed through the journey home, hoping that some kind soul would pass it over to the control station. Wasn't myself at all when I was home, as I waited impatiently for that one call. And finally, it came at 9.28pm! It was a heavy weight off my chest, seriously! The man was like "Hello, Fiona right? Your wallet was found at Clementi MRT station. A passenger found it and handed it over to us. Are you a student of Ngee Ann?" I was so excited. Hahaha! Must really thank God, my prayers were answered. Dad and sis were beside me and they were pretty relieved too. Oh well, oh well! I've learnt my lesson.
Tonight, I promise myself a good night, as I sleep all my troubles away.
11:49 PM
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
Only animals who are below civilization and angels who are beyond it, can be sincere. Human beings are, necessarily, actors who cannot become something before they have first pretended to be it; and they can be divided, not into the hypocritical and the sincere, but into the sane who know they are acting and the mad who do not.
I must be going through an emotional slump, which is rare, but it's happening anyway.
I must be going through an emotional slump, which is rare, but it's happening anyway.
9:03 PM
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you
Don’t you realise how every girl’s profile or writings is about that one guy, and yet he never knows every word is about him? Amusing somewhat, isn't it?
WISHING AND MAKING IT HAPPEN IS TWO DIFFERENT THINGS.
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you
Don’t you realise how every girl’s profile or writings is about that one guy, and yet he never knows every word is about him? Amusing somewhat, isn't it?
WISHING AND MAKING IT HAPPEN IS TWO DIFFERENT THINGS.
11:06 PM
Monday, July 02, 2007
Okay, I'm up! Had a long long sleep. Too bad I didn't dream! :(
Dreaming can be quite fun sometimes ya'know. I can actually think about something really hard and I'll dream of it. Weird, but cool, isn't it? Guess I didn't think hard enough last night. Sometimes, I let my sub-consciousness take over, so my dreams can be very unexpected. Like how they have been for the past week? I sound super psycho now, I know that. Just babbling nonsense.
Have you ever felt like you have SOOO much to say, but you just can't explain it? Like why sometimes you feel so angsty and irritable? Or like sometimes you have too many things on your mind, you just can't figure out which to talk about first? Or maybe sometimes, you're just shocked and speechless? Haha! Yes, I'm going on my rants again. Sorry!
So anyhoos, I woke up, with the song "If You Leave" by Nada Surf, playing in my head again. It'd almost be like deja vu. But then again, that's not even what deja vu means. Speaking of deja vu, it's been occurring rather often. Meaning that your "eyes register the sight before your brain does" so that's how it happens. Well, I love that term anyway, and it always feels so funny to experience a deja vu! But I like it. =)
Okay, so I'm just gonna leave you guys with the lyrics, and I'm hoping it won't replay in my head again!
If You Leave
If you leave, don't leave now
Please don't take my heart away
Promise me just one more night
Then we'll go our separate ways
We always had time on our sides
Now it's fading fast
Every second every moment
We've gotta make it last
I touch you once, I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we'd still be friends someday
If you leave, I won't cry
I won't waste a single day
But if you leave, don't look back
I'll be running the other way
Seven years went under the bridge
Like time was standing still
Heaven knows what happens now
You've gotta say you will
I touch you once, I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we'd meet again someday
day, day, day
I touch you once, I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we'd meet again someday
(ha, ha, ha, ha, ha)
If you leave if you leave
Don't look back
Don't look back
This is really redundant and stupid man! But heck! I'm out!
Dreaming can be quite fun sometimes ya'know. I can actually think about something really hard and I'll dream of it. Weird, but cool, isn't it? Guess I didn't think hard enough last night. Sometimes, I let my sub-consciousness take over, so my dreams can be very unexpected. Like how they have been for the past week? I sound super psycho now, I know that. Just babbling nonsense.
Have you ever felt like you have SOOO much to say, but you just can't explain it? Like why sometimes you feel so angsty and irritable? Or like sometimes you have too many things on your mind, you just can't figure out which to talk about first? Or maybe sometimes, you're just shocked and speechless? Haha! Yes, I'm going on my rants again. Sorry!
So anyhoos, I woke up, with the song "If You Leave" by Nada Surf, playing in my head again. It'd almost be like deja vu. But then again, that's not even what deja vu means. Speaking of deja vu, it's been occurring rather often. Meaning that your "eyes register the sight before your brain does" so that's how it happens. Well, I love that term anyway, and it always feels so funny to experience a deja vu! But I like it. =)
Okay, so I'm just gonna leave you guys with the lyrics, and I'm hoping it won't replay in my head again!
If You Leave
If you leave, don't leave now
Please don't take my heart away
Promise me just one more night
Then we'll go our separate ways
We always had time on our sides
Now it's fading fast
Every second every moment
We've gotta make it last
I touch you once, I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we'd still be friends someday
If you leave, I won't cry
I won't waste a single day
But if you leave, don't look back
I'll be running the other way
Seven years went under the bridge
Like time was standing still
Heaven knows what happens now
You've gotta say you will
I touch you once, I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we'd meet again someday
day, day, day
I touch you once, I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I needed you then
You always said we'd meet again someday
(ha, ha, ha, ha, ha)
If you leave if you leave
Don't look back
Don't look back
This is really redundant and stupid man! But heck! I'm out!
1:18 PM
Sunday, July 01, 2007
The 'P' in PMS should not only stand for PRE, but PRESENT and POST too. Gosh! I am feeling messed up, screwed up, for no damn reason. Just feel like screaming! Who's gonna scream with me now? I want someone I could scream at! Urgh! I'm annoyed with everything. Insanity's goona struck! It should be Pre, Present and Post Menstrual Syndrome.
I'm so shagged.
"We are enslaved by anything we do not consciously see.
We are freed by conscious perception."
I'm so shagged.
"We are enslaved by anything we do not consciously see.
We are freed by conscious perception."
11:37 PM